the butterfly bitch part six…

friday night & the butterfly in bed

me & the butterfly, a darkened tv;
mighta tasted dinner, moved quickly
for a lustful ‘good ‘ol days’ kinda fuck.

my butterfly is back, n’ everything’s
sort of nice, ‘cept not quite. was her
left wing always torn like that? feels
strange, if so safely far from new;
my jewelery is still as cheap as any
of our promises to each other.

laying in bed together, naked. i’m
staring at my ceiling asking
her those same silent questions
again & again expecting no reply;
ms. butterfly sleeps & dreams,
sleep denied me as amidst so many
unknowns; is this a kick-start towards
life with my beautiful butterfly or a
final hip-thrust turn of the screw?

by breakfast i’m no damn good
for conversation, yawning & tired.
not from lack of sleep; that’d
be too easy. i’ve exhausted
too much for a butterfly who
can only be halfheartedly held.

she leaves for coffee with a girlfriend,
& i don’t remember her telling me.
it’s ok; she promised to be back soon.

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There might be a sizable break before the final Butterfly Bitch poem is written. If it comes out anything like this one, I’ll be happy to be done thinking about every damn mistake I’ve been a part of over the last decade and a half. Dedicated to a realtor friend who is so much of a better person than I am that it’s not even funny. That she is still a friend speaks far more to her kindness than any tribute of mine. Love ya babe, even if you never see this.

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7 Responses to “the butterfly bitch part six…”

  1. that’s a beautiful poem.
    love your courage and honesty in portraying one’s inner emotions..

  2. Thanks Jingle, means a lot coming from you! There is still one more poem to write but I am not sure when I want to sit down and finish the story. I know poetry requires pure honesty but sometimes honesty sucks, if you catch my drift. Thanks again for the kind words,

    crb.

  3. i like the whimsical quality of this piece… good job.

  4. “ms. butterfly sleeps & dreams,
    sleep denied me as amidst so many
    unknowns; is this a kick-start towards
    life with my beautiful butterfly or a
    final hip-thrust turn of the screw?”

    i really like this one, it’s very honest. just really good.

  5. Thanks for the comments & compliments everyone, Most appreciated, especially on this poem.

    crb.

  6. belladonna23 Says:

    your poem is both brutal and sweet, i love the way you can pair two such perfect and nearly inexplicable emotions…….well done

    • Thanks kindly. The experiences I am attempting to chronicle are exactly as you mentioned, sweet & brutal and hurtful and funny and painful and everything in between. If you want to read it in more context, check out the link to The Butterfly Bitch series where all six of the posted poems are arranged in order with a seventh to be added whenever I sack up and write it. Enjoy, and thanks for the eyeballs.

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